This week was pretty normal, we traveled during
the middle of the week and tried to finish up our divisions at the end
of the week. I am growing weary of traveling, it is really starting to
take a toll on me. I have grown a loathing for the bus, its the only
time i am stationed and dont do anything, and thus the only time that my
brain has to really wander outside of the misison.
Stress is really something I am trying to avoid in
my life. It does no good for me, and unfortuantely I was born into a
family that quite frankly just cares about things. I have wondered to
myself so many times why I can´t just "not care." Sometimes I want to
have that attitude, to just not be so affected by things but I can´t.
It´s not me. Something I have really worked on the mission is to be okay
when I don´t get things I want. All of my life I think my biggest
strength is being able to get what I want, it´s always been something
I´ve been able to do. But especially on the mission when we affect the
free agency of others and include gospel principles into the picture it
becomes a little bit more complicated. I need to get to the point where I
don´t need to control the situation, where I can be okay with others
making important decisions, that i even may not agree with.
The mission is an incredible ground for learning
about God, others, and most importantly yourself. I´ve made so many
important discoveries about who I am and what things control my actions,
that difficult part is being able to cannonize those things, and direct
them for good, be it my will or not. Mostly I´ve just realized that I
am a selfish selfish person, and each day I fight with myself to become a
little bit more like Christ. And that is my sermon for the day. Sorry I
didn´t give more details about the week but quite frankly I just dont
remember. My mission is becoming a big blur, and I know it will all be
over soon so I´m going to try to work hard and stay focused as to have
no regrets.
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